Monthly Archives: January 2013

Peterson Nutrition & Fitness

Need a great dietician and/or support group? Check out Peterson Nutrition & Fitness! http://www.petersonnutrition.com/

Elisabeth Peterson is a Certified Eating Disorders Registered Dietitian (CEDRD) who served a pivotal role in my recovery. She offers terrific individual counseling, a variety of workshops, and life-changing support groups. Elisabeth understands the complexity of eating disorders, and she patiently works with her clients to help them navigate the road to recovery. Seeking help can be a terrifying step, but Elisabeth’s nurturing approach makes that step much easier to take.

If you are struggling and do not currently meet with a registered dietician, I would strongly encourage you to contact Elisabeth today.

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Kid President Pep Talk

I love this! Seriously, you have to watch it.

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January 29, 2013 · 1:26 am

Reason Behind the Title: Never.Give.Up.

The title for this blog has been my motto for the last several years. But if you’re wondering where it came from, it was inspired by my former youth pastor’s speech that he gave at our high school graduation banquet. When I applied to UNC, I was asked to write about the best advice I’d ever received. Below is my admissions essay that sums up where my blog title and life motto Never.Give.Up. came from (and also led to me now being a proud UNC Tar Heel).

One hundred high school graduates filled the banquet hall. Eager to take on the world, our young hearts burst with excitement. As we celebrated with one another, Micah Voraritskul took the stage. Our beloved youth pastor stood before us ready to share his final words of wisdom. Up to this point, everyone had encouraged us to chase after our dreams. Micah, however, spoke of the obstacles and tragedies we would face in life. He assured each of us that we would encounter heartache and pain. The room fell silent. Staring intently into our eyes, he repeated three words once spoken by Winston Churchill, “Never give up.” A long pause followed. Once more he stated, “Never give up.” Not a single sound broke the hush in the air. All eyes fixed on Micah while he repeated a final time, “Never give up.”

Fast-forward to the summer after my freshman year of college. Tears spilled from my eyes as I boarded a plane bound for Arizona. In a few short hours I would admit myself into Remuda Ranch for sixty days of inpatient eating disorder treatment. At age nineteen, anorexia had stolen my joy, my passion and my essence. Without fighting for my life, the disease would soon steal my final breath. Fear trembled through my bones. The battle before me felt impossible to win. In that moment, Micah’s words echoed in my memory, “Never give up.” I repeated these words to myself for the next sixty days.

Coiled on the bathroom floor, thoughts of suicide raced through my weary mind. I had spent an entire year fighting for recovery. Yet, despite my attempts to combat the illness, the struggle failed to ease. I had poured my all into recovery. Nonetheless, the battle still waged daily. Exhaustion and despair flooded my spirit. Afraid the light at the end of the tunnel never existed, death seemed to be the only certain end. As I contemplated such an end, Micah’s words, “Never give up,” reverberated through my being. A renewed sense of strength empowered my soul as I stood to face another day.

Four years after hearing this life changing speech, I am now returning to school in order to receive a degree in psychology. Thankfully, my struggle with anorexia has indeed come to an end. However, Micah’s advice continues to encourage me regularly. Due to my time off from school during recovery, I fall outside the typical college timeline. I am twenty-two years old, married and still have undergraduate and graduate school to complete. When I think about the amount of time standing between today and my eventual master’s degree I hear three simple words, “Never give up.”

No matter the obstacles that life presents, I will remain steadfast and persevere towards my goals. Storms will ride in, perhaps ones greater than I can imagine. Nevertheless, I will continue to hold tight to the message I heard that blissful morning in 2006. Giving up is not an option. To every challenge I will shout, “Never give up!”

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Tunnel – Third Day

I listened to this song on repeat the entire flight from MD to AZ on my way to inpatient for the first time. Love the message of these lyrics so much!

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January 28, 2013 · 8:27 pm

Shawn McDonald Rise

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January 28, 2013 · 2:19 pm

Beauty – by Kimberly Carroll

Found this when I was flipping through old journals from 2009.

Beauty

The way a friend’s voice can lift the fog from your day

The warmth that fills your soul with just a simple laugh

The ability to dream from the core of your heart

Reaching deep within yourself and uncovering the courage of a champion

Allowing tears to fall freely in the presence of someone you love

Breathing deeply as if you have everything to gain with just that one breath

Believing in the God who created the universe in just seven days

Discovering that you have a soul mate after all

Looking into someone’s eyes and knowing with all confidence that they are endlessly in love with you

The King of All Kings sacrificing his life to pay the ransom of your debt so that he may call you his Bride

Facing your fears despite the trembling you feel inside

Clinging to hope when the storm is raging on all sides and believing that there will be a break in the clouds

Smiling with true joy and free of all inhibition

Dancing from your heart regardless of who’s watching

And believing in your core that you are beautifully & wonderfully made, worthy of love, and deserving of true life

– by Kimberly Carroll

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“We are all mea…

“We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” – Nelson Mandela

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January 27, 2013 · 8:51 pm

I Will Rise – Chris Tomlin

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January 27, 2013 · 8:48 pm

Dark Side – Kelly Clarkson

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January 27, 2013 · 8:44 pm

Stronger by Kelly Clarkson

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January 27, 2013 · 8:36 pm